From the recording oh, sheesh / pink + green
Lyrics
Tried to tell you that I loved you through a screen
And in a word you buried me
Like mom and dad I do extremes
I feel like I'm just one more feat
That you have long sought after all this time
Or maybe it's just me
I take it in and it's clear to see
I'm aware of when I should leave
I could give you another speech
Or maybe get down on my knees and risk it all in a Dairy Queen
But it was never up to me
My fault
I've said too much
Alcohol and cookie crumbs
Help lead to my confession
But I think I'm just attention seeking
Cause I want you way too much
My bad habits and fucking up
All point to my regression
Think I'll never learn my lesson fully
Soon as you came
I saw you go
And now I'm stuck on the bathroom floor
Like I'm the last in the Alamo
I remember your face well
Sometimes I think that it's all I know
It's enough to make me feel good
There's so much that I want to say
But I'm worried its too late
When I'm with you I'm like
"Jeez, you're so sick, good fucking grief"
I learned that it's not all me
I learned it never was
My fault
I've said too much
Alcohol and cookie crumbs
Help lead to my confession
But I think I'm just attention seeking
Cause I want you way too much
My bad habits and fucking up
All point to my regression
Think I'll never learn my lesson fully
I'm so afraid that I'll push you away
I'm so afraid that I've pushed my friends away
I'm so afraid that I'll push you away
I'm so afraid there's a price I'll pay
Cause every morning I wake up and I'm afraid to face myself
Afraid of the price I'll pay
Why is it so hard to just simply breathe
Why is it hard to just simply speak
It's so hard to just even blink
And if I play my cards just right maybe I can get to sleep